starvation and you

don't deny yourself food

have you ever just been so down that maybe you thought starving yourself would help. i have went down that road many times. and trust me its not the way to go. i haven looked at myself in the mirror and hated what i saw, so i thought maybe if i just deny myself food sometimes that i could lose a few pounds, yes i lost weight but it sucked, my stomach hurt so bad, i was always hungry. have you ever went somewhere and all of a sudden your stomach makes horribly loud i'm hungry sounds. well that's now what my stomach did every where i went.

have you ever not eaten for a while then you get to that point that you literally want to eat everything in site? yeah that's what happened to me, so not was i harming my body, i got to the point where i was eating more than i normally did even when i was eating normal. sometimes i still think about it, i know i shouldn't, but it gets so hard, i eat very healthy ( until i eat cupcakes in class ). i exercise, and yet i still look at myself and absolutely hate what i see, i talk about it with no one, because i don't want to hear what they have to say. 

sometimes if my little sister sees that i haven't eaten in a while she gets very upset with me, because she knows the path i'm going down isn't a good one, and she is only 9. i never want her to even think about starving herself because not only would i feel like its my fault i would just die inside. another reason i try not to do it is because there are people everywhere starving not by choice but because they don't have money or for some other reason that stops them from getting a good meal, and yet i can eat almost whatever i want and yet i don't, and why? because i hate myself, i know starving isn't the answer, but eating right, and the right amounts is the right way to go. 

starving does more bad than it does good for your body. when you starve yourself you lower your metabolism and it makes it harder to lose weight and to want to get up and exercise, when you are in starvation mode you don't want to do anything, including exercise, when your that hungry and are about to exercise it hurts more than it helps. you need to have a full stomach of healthy foods, not a stomach of nothing. i have learned this the hard way that starving yourself literally sucks the life out of you. and not the pounds that you are so desperately trying to melt off. the

starving yourself can also lead to health problems. you can go way to long with out anything and pass out or just can do anything because of the lack of food you have in your stomach, and we all know you don't want them to have to pump food into your stomach. and i bet no one wants to have to explain to a doctor let alone your family why you haven't been eating, they might suggest a counselor or something, now there is nothing wrong with getting a counselor is might actually help some people with what they are going through, rather than go through it alone. and talking to a stranger  might be better than talking to your family who will judge and not understand where you are coming from. and that could hurt you and make you do worse. i want change, but starving myself isn't the way.